Brandon & Kristin

Brandon & Kristin

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Where Else Would I Go?

It was only two weeks ago that Kristin was experiencing her first real contractions. It is hard to believe all that has happened since then. We are different people in many ways. We have grieved hard and cried many tears, but the days are getting easier. We have gotten to know each other in new ways and our relationship has never been sweeter. We have also gotten to know God in deeper and more intimate ways. He is really the only source of comfort for us. Even though it is scary to trust Him at times, we would have it no other way. I think of Peter's response when Jesus asked if he wanted to leave Him too... Peter said "where else would I go? Who else has the words of life?" That is my own little paraphrase, but you get the point. It is difficult to follow and trust God with something as precious as our daughters life... but who else can we trust? Certainly we cannot even trust ourselves.

We would still love to wake up in the morning and hear little Addie in the other room. We would still love to hold her close. We would still love to get to know all of her little sounds. There are so many things that we would love if Addie were still around, but God had different plans. And again we hold to the fact that those plans are good. We are confused at times and sad at times, but we hold no anger toward our good God.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi,
I've never met you either, but I just wanted to let you know that I have been praying for you. I pray that God will continue to grant you strength, comfort and peace.

Amy R from IL

Kelli B said...

I want to respond to your post here. I am currently reading a book and in it a devoted christian man was described. Over the course of his life, he suffered a lot of difficulty, scars of the Vietnam war, then eventually the loss of his wife and daughter, other close friends and family, possessions, and eventually he lost a good friend he'd develop during his 80s. This young boy was in his 20s and the old man decided to renounce his faith, withdraw his membership from the church, and become a devout atheist. This man had prayed that God would keep his finger upon this young man, as he seemed special and not like the rest. When this young man died, the man decided he'd had enough.

I share this for one reason: to say THANK YOU for setting an example of faith. For trusting in God when you probably feel like not doing that. You are encouraging, you are sharing Christ with the world, and you are displaying faith in motion - active faith and a CHOICE to believe in our great God!

Last night I went to bed discouraged over the old man's story - and today I have been restored to hope having read yours. Nobody is perfect, we are ALL going to suffer in varying degrees - and we will all meet face to face with the Lord one day. I pray that we will walk the high road, CHOOSE to have faith in God, and LIVE.

Praise God for your lives, your hearts, and your faith.

Chloe Cigler said...

Hi Kristin-
My husband just filled me in on your devastating news - he teaches with your mom at Valders and received an email. My heart goes out to Addie, you and your husband. Reading through your blog, it looks and sounds like your relationship with each other and God will help you heal. Just wanted to let you know you are in my thoughts.

Take care of yourself, Chloe (Reindl) Cigler

Dunn said...

Hi Kristin- My husband just filled me in on your devastating news - he teaches with your mom at Valders and received an email. My heart goes out to Addie, you and your husband. Reading through your blog, it looks and sounds like your relationship with each other and God will help you heal. Just wanted to let you know you are in my thoughts. Take care of yourself, Chloe (Reindl) Cigler