Brandon & Kristin

Brandon & Kristin

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Being A Father

Kristin and I are doing really well right now. But if you were to ask us again later this afternoon, we may give you a very different answer. The grieving process is not as steady as we might like. One moment we are laughing and joking and the next we are hit with a memory and crying. These ups and downs are slowly becoming less extreme, but I am not sure that they will ever totally level off.

One of the best questions that we have been asked is, "what have you learned about God through this?" I say it is one of the best, because it is one of the most important questions we can ask ourselves. I have learned many new things about God and I am still deep in the learning process. Here are a few of the thoughts running through my head...

  • I understand more of what it means to be a father. One of God's names is Father or Daddy. My heart and mind changed with the birth of Addie and I became a father. I became a protector. I would have done anything for that little girl. Why? Because I was her daddy.

  • I also know what it means to lose my baby. God sent His Son to earth to live and die. He lived a sinless life and was killed by men. He knows my feelings and understands them beyond my comprehention.

  • God is as good today as he was a month ago as he was 1000 years ago. His goodness does not depend on my opinion or the circumstances I find myself in.

  • God is the refuge to which I was meant to run. He is my strength and the rock on which I stand. Without Him there is no hope and life is meaningless.


Lauren Harman said...

still praying for and thinking about you. what good pictures. love you guys,

Courtney said...

I could just call you and tell you this but I thought I'd write it instead. Someone told me yesterday that some years ago there was a pastor who lost his infant daughter. Two weeks after his daughter had passed he was to preach to his congregation. No one knew what he would say or if he would even be able to preach. He did. He stood up and said "I'm speaking to you from the bottom of the well, but I can tell you the ground is solid beneath me."

Anonymous said...

Hey bro. I must say, you look good as a dad. What blessed lessons you have already learned from the life and loss of your beautiful daughter. I trust that God will continue to reveal His manifold wisdom and boundless love to you and your family for years to come through this situation. Love you guys. Aaron Chambers

Sandra said...

All of you have chosen to give God so much glory and praise from this! It is beautiful though bittersweet. May the Lord bless you and keep you and make His face shine upon you. I love you guys and wish I was there,
~Sandy Collins