Brandon & Kristin

Brandon & Kristin

Friday, June 26, 2009

Addie's second birthday



Yesterday, Addie would have turned 2 years old. I don't really feel up to writing much right now but I wanted to acknowledge her birthday on our blog. Two years ago tonight we were home in our apartment in Riverside without her. Our friends had left after bringing and eating dinner with us. And my parents were on their way to CA.

Our hope was and is in Jesus. He walked with us through each step. Our pain was deep, real, intense, relentless and at an enormous size. But there was and is hope and joy even inside of that pain. Yesterday and today, we are sad. We've cried and probably had much less capacity for the normal stresses of living. We feel heavy.

Last night, we went out on a date (sushi) and then got a piece of cake at a Mexican bakery. We went to Starbucks and split the cake and talked. Today, we went to the beach with Silas and had fun. We took pictures, talked, prayed and walked Silas into the waves. We had taken Addie's ashes and scattered them in the ocean 2 years ago so the beach felt like a good place to be today.

We miss our baby girl.

7 comments:

Jess said...

Hi guys. Love you, and thinking about you.

Lauren Harman said...

Hi Crouch Family,
I still think about you and pray for you often. I am glad that you were able to celebrate with each other and with Addie's little brother (who is amazing in the first picture, by the way). Love you! Lauren

jamie said...

was thinking and praying for you guys on addie's birthday! hope you got my text message! love you guys

Grandma G said...

Hard to believe it's been 2 years already. I'm sure it'll be a sad time for you every year, remembering... and thinking of "what might've been". God bless you through each moment of missing Addie.

I'm so glad you have your adorable little Silas to brighten and fill your days with love!

Leslie Smith said...

Kristin and Brandon,
My heart is heavy for you and I am thinking of your precious little girl today. I will always keep her memory close to my heart.

Love
Leslie

Jill said...

This weekend I planted Addie's daisies in my garden Kristen. This year they are white and will brighten up my garden every day. I love you sister.

Jill

TheFrazers said...

Thanks for sharing your heart, Kristin. Drew and I are thinking of you and celebrating Addie's precious life.