Brandon & Kristin

Brandon & Kristin

Saturday, August 18, 2007

My lot

Here's another picture of our little girl. We think she's pretty adorable.

Some days I still feel like pouting like a 3 year old. And some days losing Addie just feels okay, even though I don't like it at all. And some days I just feel kind of sad. I still feel like there is a long road ahead of me. And I know there will always be a hole in my heart/life as a mother who misses raising her daughter. But I also know that Addie hasn't lost out. In heaven, Addie is "happier than the happiest person on earth," (in John Piper's words). So as we mourn losing her in this life, it helps me to remember that she hasn't lost anything.

And God's Word is true and full of health to my soul. Psalm 16:5-9 says: "LORD, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance. I will praise the LORD, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. I have set the LORD always before me. Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure," Pray that I hold tightly to truth about God and will set Him always before me.

2 comments:

Candy said...

Hi Kristin & Brandon,

Adorable, indeed... and with the cutest little nose!

Thank you for sharing the photo... and for being so open and real with all the feelings you're going through. Grief is such a hard journey, and yes, a long one. The hole in your heart will always be there, but the pain from it will become less intense over time. Your trust in God will see you through... your faith is so evident... and your reward will be more than you can ever imagine!

I just wanted to let you know I'm still "with" you, and I continue to pray for you.

Love,
Candy

P.S. Go ahead and let yourself be the pouty 3-yr-old... even have a tantrum if you feel like it... just for 'a few minutes'. God will understand.

Sue said...

Hi Friends
What a head of hair!!

The words you share bring back so many memories and feelings...
I am glad you are at home with people who love you. It means so much during these days.
Love,
sue